I have today been hit with the realisation that I will out live my daughter,  the hard hitting  truth smacked me in the face while I was doing the sandwiches of all things, but do you know what is worse…. is that I hope this is the case because everyday I become more and more scared for her and fear what will happen to her if I am not around.

It is a reality that I am not comfortable with but a reality none the less.