I often wonder if I am blessed to be here…. on this earth. I have asked myself the question “why are we here” many times, I struggle to find an answer which in itself is futile as there is not a definitive answer. Since having my children part of this question is answered, I know why I … as a Mum, carer, confident is here, but for me as a whole person, the girl, teenager, young woman ( ok, who am I trying to kid, a woman in her middle ages) I am a shell of a person I once knew and fear like so many others, if not all, that I am now defined by my children.
Having children changes you that’s a fact, having a child with autism changes you beyond recognition. All you thought you knew is irrelevant, trying to see the world as she does is one of the biggest challenges I have faced, trying to maintain a level, happy, calm environment for my beautiful girl is a daily struggle…. and she is so beautiful, sometimes I swear I can see a light surrounding her. This blog is an insight into that life.
Darling Fleur, we live on the outside looking in, and we do so wish we could join you.